The Only Certainty

I once read somewhere
that death is the only certain thing
in this uncertain world.
Yet when it knocked on my door,
Every part of me trembled
wishing, pleading,
for just one miracle.

I promised I would never ask God for anything.
But just to keep you here with us
was my only wish,
And that would have been enough.

Even though my mind knew
that my childhood was slipping away,
My heart kept holding on,
believing that somehow,
You would stay with us.

When I saw you there, 
your face pale and still,
lying quietly on the ground,
My heart sank deep within me,
Yet a tiny part of me waited
for you to wake up,
to call my name just one more time.

On that cloudy day,
with raindrops softly falling,
It felt like the whole world
had come together
to take you away from us.
And I just stood there, helpless,
slowly realizing
You would never call for me again.

Now you are enveloped in my core memory,
in those little beautiful moments
where you're still teaching me
How to ride my bicycle, 
surprising me with chocolates on my birthdays,
laughing and smiling
Every time I acted silly
just to see your smile.

These countless precious memories
wrap around my heart,
keeping you warm and alive
in the quiet corners of my soul.

Even though
My greatest fear came true,
I still fear deep down
that I’ll forget your smile,
or how your voice sounded
When you called for me
with that soft, familiar warmth.

I hold onto hope
that somewhere else,
in some other world,
I'll meet you again.
And when I do,
I'll tell you all the stories
about everything I did
after you let go of my hand,
trusting me to find my own way
in this big, uncertain world.

You're gone, I know,
Yet a part of me refuses
to ever accept that you've left.
People often say
Time heals everything,
But losing you has only made
This ache grows deeper.

Each day, I miss you
more than yesterday.
And somehow, in missing you,
I feel closer than ever.

In every chapter of my life,
Your absence will echo softly.
At every milestone,
I'll look for you in the quiet corners of joy.

And every time I see a child giggle their heart out,
It’s your face that will splash into my being,
because it was you,
It is you,
And it will always be you
who keeps that little girl in me smiling.

I really hope you are watching over us:)